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Merely just a coming-of-age boy who's embracing the whole affair with testosterone-driven nonchalance.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
+ & in my hour of weakness, there's still time left to tryoverreliance?
9.24pm
Sunday, July 26, 2009
This is for the ones who believe their lives won't changeHoping that someday things will mend and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away
How can I say
Say I'll be okay
And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on
How can I
Breathe
Time slips. too quickly.
Breathe
Time slips. too quickly.
11.21pm
Saturday, July 25, 2009
MILDRED/ says:HAHA. but you said you didnt wanna touch your com till aft prelims
Shawn 8-| says:
sadly im online now
Funny how that after so many years of exams and studying we still repeat the same mistakes of procrastinating etc. Dumb, we're supposed to learn from experiences not collect them to gather dust. HAHA and there I was saying I won't come back after prelims but look where I am now.
I'd like to think of myself as not a stupid person, or at least that's what I think. however, it'd be objectionable if I said I didn't fall into chasms of anxiety at all this year. which is why i'm thankful for those that fished me out of a hole i've fallen so deep into. sanity totally took a whole vacation off me, but I was reminded that I'm not nearly as terminal as I thought I was, so for now I just wanna stay closer to the surface so that I wouldn't feel weightless as I did again.
“ I was happy but happy is an adult word. You don’t have to ask a child about happy, you see it. They are or they are not. Adults talk about being happy because largely they are not. Talking about it is the same as trying to catch the wind. Much easier to let it blow all over you. Jeanette Winterson
anyway, not the point of this post. this is a lil bit overdue, (i didn't wna think of it as a necessary priority, HAHA) but I'm OFFICIALLY EIGHTEEN! had a bunch of celebrations planned for in that span of few days and i love them all. in fact the whole affair was embraced with love and luxuries that i was a bit taken aback because I was actually dreading the day to come. but no matter, friends and family all made me live it up to the fullest, and I appreciate it all really. maybe i'd post some pictures soon? loving all the surprises and dinners and messages.
Oh and not forgetting the presents! what a haul, including like what, the red trunks which I'd prolly won't be wearing yet for a long time, the zen huiyan and the class chipped in to get me because I mentioned that I need an mp3 or sth like that.. the symbolic diapers (what de!!) and waffles surprise that family three gave.. the ultra AA smiley balloon jessica had me wear to classes the whole morning.. the pocky chocolate that azureen gave and yes mom bought me omnia! haha and I got movie treats by aarthi and fanny and a buffet mania for 3 consecutive days. unlikely not fattening. and the photo with frame that wanting made and passed me just yesterday. feeling blissful yes, THANK YOU ALL!
anyway, on an entirely different note, harry potter was a lil bit of a disappointment indeed. it didn't have any climaxes or if it did, they're all offsetted. as a single movie i don't think it had any standards, but as a prelude to deathly hallows, they set a good one i guessed. can't wait for the next 2 movies to come.
okay okay okay time to get motivated and doing justice to the subjects I'm been not putting emphasising on. dont wanna waste anymore of this beautiful weekend yes?
1.40pm
Monday, July 6, 2009
5/7 of the birthday babies present!
Our official last. In the end, only this much of us could make it, but it was still great company and time spent. Feeling like a rather red/white/grey picnic? Food was a much better turnout compared to last year with sushi and soup and pizza HAHA. I love F3!
Photo credits to Hooikim.
Sigh, my psp dropped on the bus home today with a super loud clang, ouch. This has to stop! I think I'd really need a smaller music player if I want to survive revision times. Anyone willing to sell me theirs for a decent price?
Feeling like a week to prioritize. If I want to deliver, I'd only have about 5 days to change. Sigh. Should I abhor to my qualities or should I adopt to everybody? Why does it feel like it was right to rain these days?
8.17pm
Labels: reflection
Saturday, July 4, 2009
“ Time is short and it doesn’t return again. It is slipping away while I write this and while you read it, and the monosyllable of the clock is Loss, loss, loss, unless you devote your heart to its opposition. ”— Tennessee Williams
It's as if time flows so quickly you can hardly catch your breath. right now, I'm experiencing this thick surge of nostalgia flowing and I can't help it. Sigh, it's a pity really. could only admonish myself for being languid in connections. there had been just so uncountable past happenings, but well good times lost times.
Last year's birthday I had a blast. my favourite classmates threw me a surprise and a successful one as a matter of fact. damien melissa shenn & winifred sneaked off during physics to get me that huge candle plus sushis in substitutes for a cake because they know I couldn't have lactose. in the meantime, munkit that poor buddy diverted me to the toilet for a shitting session. pretty hilarious because we really pooped. anyway even when I had some idea that some surprise would be coming around, it was still a shock that I won't be forgetting for a long time.
This is probably one of the most momentous pictures taken and I really love it. haha look at munkit, so cute.
anyway a following celebration was held in the canteen. this one was even more climatic. i think shenn was the one that covered my eyes and led me through bumpy benches till I reached my substitute cakes: homemade honey-lettered breads and a 20pcs nuggets that leon went out to buy because they couldn't decide what to buy. I really appreciated it anyway, because it was celebrated with my favourite people aka F3 and ogtens. thanks guys.
I wonder who's hands are those. anyway the heart is lovely, whoever you are (:
I've been missing camp times too. Especially CDAYL, the camp where I got to encounter a bunch of beloved peeps in a lifetime: Family three. & it was exceptionally eventful, because we had a notorious leader chaperoning us throughout. thanks jessica!
mildred: you took this during CDAYL. i rmb, we're chionging the thank-you cards for campers.
at that special staircase, we had a lot of moments. we painted our banners and lgboards there. and during the camp it was our spot to prepare our farewell gifts for our campers. during the camp we were so exhausted from the lack of slumber. yet we still persevered on and made it through. potato were cheering us on. & I had great partners like zhaomian and pearlyn who helped me in writing those letters. thanks you guys. I miss you guys so much.
june last year saw a passing of a very special camp which is line 2. i beared through this camp with another special group of people, but sadly nowadays I barely talk to half of them. nonetheless it was a rather eventful one and i'm missing it right now.
this picture was famous of one thing: leon's gay pose! haha anyway don't we all looked adorable.
last year after orientation in the span of that few months, I find myself getting attached to 5 special people: nicholas, yixuan, leon, denise and shenn. I had a blast doing crazy things with them, like sleepovers, and sneaking out in the middle of the night. and library times. but what happened to us is better left unmentioned.
you know what happened here? I was made to pose like this while they all sneaked off. in a nutshell, I was owned. what a conventional prank.
anyway I had a short catch up with leon just now:
Shawn 8-| says:
guess its because i havent talked to you for a damn long time.
these times around last year we're probably always sleepovering.
=Leon= says:
haha yeah. around the holidays.
fun times, i guess.
lol.
Shawn 8-| says:
lost times
=Leon= says:
haha.
well.
time flows, things go.
lol.
Shawn 8-| says:
feeling poetic ah.
=Leon= says:
haha. maaybe.
I'm taking lit now after all.
lol.
Shawn 8-| says:
maaybe
=Leon= says:
hahaha.
it's okay we've come to a decision that we'll find one day out of our hectic schedules for some midnight cycling. he was an absolute buddy and did many things only a pal would do. that said, I can't wait for that day to come. man, I missed that dude so much!
I've gradually come to terms with myself that I really love this another group of special people: that is family. In a widespread, they comprises of many, including my cousins, my aunts and my uncles from my mothers' side. the bond we share is immeasureable. every single year since the day i've been born, there's always something to remember us by. and i'm grateful.
through them, i found acceptance, i found happiness and i found love. that's hardcore tight kinship. through them, i'm always learning new qualities. and learning them better than through my friends. we're just so tight. like as of now, my parents are playing mahjong with my aunt and uncle. like two corny but sweet old double dating times to gather and share gossips. it's a pity we'd been meeting up and planning overnights lesser and lesser. well i guess its because everyone's finding their schedules getting more packed.
during the last june holidays, my aunt arranged for a special family-only chalet sleepover. we celebrated three birthdays at once, including one of my favourite cousin winnie's. those were nights to remember. i havent spent such quality time with my cousins for a long time like that. yay, i'm gonna be spending a day with my cousins next week in aleu for my birthday celebration. I can't wait.
I mentioned earlier a special group of socialites: family 3 is a beloved peeps i've met in a lifetime; that is an understatement. to me, i felt like i had struck gold. no, better than gold. and that i'm luckier than a lot of people because I've met them. over the short two years, we're always growing stronger, albeit only some of us because afterall we're all from different classes and it's difficult to stay in contact. but nevertheless there's had just been so many outings and gatherings and it was all worth it. we forged ties and bonds that most others wont establish. and it happened because everyone made efforts to stick together.
during june west coast park became a hot spot for us. for both mugging days and zhepeng's eventful vomitlike-covered cake smashing evening. though it's barely a few weeks, i'm missing it terribly. and also so many others. like that reunion dinner in january which was really a great reunion that was hard to come by. the dinners and celebrations last year. the day we spent at mildred's and the henderson's waves. all the recent conferences calls, the movie nights at joey's, the stayovers. i really hoped i wished I could relive those days over again, but it won't happen because time waits for no one. times with them i'd cherish forever and won't trade for anything else, ever.
what i want to say is there's barely 4 more months (actually less than that) before we take our alevels. which also spells the remaining time in JJ to spend with them. feeling all swelled and reproachful and sore about it because that's a really short time and there's still a lot that we didn't do. why is fate being so unfair. i'm bummed. i'm frightened. like joey and mildred. because after As, we're probably setting off in different paths, be it universities or overseas or national services. will we still be meeting up and update each other in ten years' time? that's hard to say. maybe it's because i've been through a lot of empty promises and i'm too afraid to believe.
but right here right now, I would say family three is different. I know I may not be good at words, but I know it's gonna be different.
because with them, I've learnt.
with them, I've grown.
with them, I laughed so hard that I didn't believe I could.
with them, I've loved. And that's what I feel. I love family three. With all my heart. All of them and every single one of them to faces to smiles to voices to bits to pieces to specks. And hopefully, this flame won't die off easily. I want them to be there when I need comfort. I want them to be there when I score some chick so that I can introduce her to them. I want them to be there when I get married. I want to make them godparents for my children. I want them to be there when I leave this world.
Hahaha isn't it funny. we were once strangers who don't even know each other and now it'd transpired to something close to a family. I'm being so selfish, but I don't care. maybe fate will pity us and slow time down and slow us down. then I can have more time to spend with them.
And that also goes for everyone else in all and everything.
So i'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me
1.40am
Friday, July 3, 2009
Hello you I have an announcement to make....HAHAHA I TOTALLY SURVIVED BLOOD DRAWING TODAY!!!!!
Hawhaw.
Not trying to make a big deal outta this but it's quite a feat okay. There's only three things in this world that could scare the shit outta me, and those are:
1. the befalling of tests and exams,
2. the mere thought that zombies exists and..
3. A LOT OF THICK BLOOD. Sounds frightening even when I typed them out....... -shivers.
Sorry ah this is also why I don't go for blood donations. Plenty of drives held in the school before and I INTENDED to donate some, but the mere thought (and how others were sharing) of having a needle drive into your arm to sip up my precious plasma is just too gorey and it totally shook me off.
BUT IT'S OKAY! the ordeal has passed and I won't be needing to draw blood for a long time.
Come to think of it, the worst that could happen to me would be a bloodified undead limping over passing out an exam sheet. Here's to hoping my teachers aren't some bloodshot fleshing-eating zombies. HAHA.
8.55pm
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
HOOKED ON BLACK EYED PEAS.I know that well have a ball
If we get down
And go out
And just loose it all
I feel stressed out
I wanna let it go
Let's go way out spaced out
And loosing all control
(Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch...)
Fill up my cup
Mozoltov
Look at her dancing
Just take it off
Let's paint the town
Well shut it down
Lets burn the roof
And then well do it again..
7.54pm.
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