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Monday, July 6, 2009
5/7 of the birthday babies present!
Our official last. In the end, only this much of us could make it, but it was still great company and time spent. Feeling like a rather red/white/grey picnic? Food was a much better turnout compared to last year with sushi and soup and pizza HAHA. I love F3!
Photo credits to Hooikim.
Sigh, my psp dropped on the bus home today with a super loud clang, ouch. This has to stop! I think I'd really need a smaller music player if I want to survive revision times. Anyone willing to sell me theirs for a decent price?
Feeling like a week to prioritize. If I want to deliver, I'd only have about 5 days to change. Sigh. Should I abhor to my qualities or should I adopt to everybody? Why does it feel like it was right to rain these days?
8.17pm
Labels: reflection
Sunday, December 28, 2008
I've been thinking about everything that happened in my life. Ahaha 17 years of drama. This year was no different, really. But like always there's always new friends to appreciate and eventful moments to add to my album of memories.
Hoh well, was still enjoyable, can't complain. Hopefully this feeling becomes consistent to barricade the stress that's coming in 2009. Sigh, no doubt time waits for no one.
wasted on homework
three ghosts in lighthouse | 8.08pm | Fall Out Boy - 20 Dollar Nose Bleed
Labels: reflection
Thursday, December 25, 2008
1) Blister from guitar hero pwnage at cheryl's that is downright irritating now.
2) Lost $12.50 from mahjong. -.- the minute I took over my aunt right after I reached/
3) Finally answered one of shenn's calls from portugal and yet the phone just hanged and stayed shut again. Argh, & I just got it back from servicing, what the eff.
4) Woke up damn late and missed swimming and made damien wait for 4 damn hours, LOL okay bad luck on his account. :P
5) Bought 3 tops and 3 bottoms, then in the end lost one of the tops on the way home. How unlucky is that. So vexed that can't even nap in peace on the bus. Even narrow my whole head down the seats to see if the plastic bag slided inside.
6) Missed christmas celebration at ecp with jieting and peeps.
Nahmah, somemore I didn't bloody get to eat dinner. Crap, my mother's gloating 'cos of my lost shirt and how she bought paos back.
NEVER MIND, SUNSHINE AFTER RAIN.
STILL MANAGED TO BUY GOOD CLOTHES, & SAW MINGQI AT BUGIS, WX YD AT CINE.
TOMORROW GYM AND SWIM WITH JEREMY/TANIA.
GOOD DAY, GOOD DAY.
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Love, you are foolish, you're tired | 10.24pm | Beyonce - Halo
Labels: reflection
Friday, December 19, 2008
The opposite of love is not hate. Hate is a feeling just as love is. I've always thought of love as a verb not a noun. Love is something you do. Hate is also something you do. It's based in jealousy, resentment, and anger. In a lot of ways, hate cares about what happens to something or someone - even if they want that something or someone to suffer. And sometimes - hate arises from love. I don't think it's Love's opposite though.Well I'm certainly enlightened. I mean, this is something really important to think about. I've always thought that hate is a strong feeling that doesn't carry love.
Indifference is lack of concern. A lack of care - a lack of anything. There is no passion in indifference. There is no feeling in indifference, there is no real thought for something held indifferent.
I think indifference would hurt far more than hate - because in some ways, it implies a virtual non-existence. At least someone who hates you carries 'something' for you. If someone hates you, you have power over them in a way that you could even drive their hate even deeper into them. You could make them hate you even more.
But indifference - that's a whole other story. A person who's indifferent to you won't even register anything you do on their radar. I imagine it would be hard to consciously be indifferent to someone. There's no such thing as a practiced indifference - that would be an oxymoron. Indifference just happens. Indifference (just as love, or hate, or anger, or fear) in some ways is a choice, yes, but its a choice to put something down - to stop feeling one way or the other about it.
Indifference holds no positions pro or con. It feels no affection or anger. It holds no resentments - and it holds no hope. And unlike hate - indifference truly doesn't care what someone thinks. If someone is indifferent to an individual, an issue, or anything for that matter - those things have absolutely no power in the indifferent person's life.
To me - that's the opposite of love . . . .
Ref: http://3minutewindows.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!5EE2154D23E6D87D!843.entry?wa=wsignin1.0&sa=250290791
It's funny really, because of that I've forced myself to not hate anyone because it's not appropriate; because I told myself, despite these feelings I have, I do love that person even if he or she had disgusted or hurted me in any way. So it became like I would correct people that you do not hate someone because hating is wrong. -Shrugs- Guess it's relieving to realise that it's okay to hate, right.....? (rolls eyes)
Ooookay, that aside, work today was again boring. And shenn that loud person has flown off to Spain and won't be back till the 29th. The last conversation we had definitely left me something to think about. sigh. Why does choices has to be such a huge issue in my life?
(Wallow in self-pity)
Anyway, tomorrow's family three's picnic & justin's musical. And maybe something else which I don't think it might still happen. But bottomline is can't wait for the picnic. It's so awesome that family three is still so bounded despite being about 6 months and counting since our last camp. Okay yeah frankly not everyone but the spirit of f3 still burns strongly that we feel the need to still get together for occasions which is of course assuring, yes.
Okay this had been an extremely gay post so I'm going to just continue watching desperate housewives. Okay that's gay too but yeah okay really whatever
& I hope jeremy comes back from the US soon so we can gym on sundays.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LINJIACHUA.
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I need to take a holiday | 4.29am | The Fray - Over My Head
Labels: happenings, reflection
Monday, December 15, 2008
But we all know that it's not true. In fact, in my opinion, lying is just like shelving your mess aside to deal with it later. And then, pretentiously yet with a sense of guilt, continue to live life in self-denial. It's like facing up to the truth will be the last resort you'd ever take in order to solve the dilemmas that would have accumulated over the years, soon coming to suffocate you.
Yes it's common for people to lie. Mothers lie. Lawyers lie. Businessmen, tour guides and even teachers, they all lie to survive. It had somehow evolved to the stage that it is common practice. Sadly, no matter how much we try to change, the existence of lies is never going to fade.
But on a brighter note, here's to mcfly and this cool new blog I've relocated to. Hope things'll get afresh and blogging will always stay healthy.
Memories | 1.19am | Britney Spears - Amnesia
Labels: reflection
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